Nice Day

 Today we made carnitas and I went to go pick plums from our tree with my friend :3 Except, the grass is really tall right now and there are snakes in the yard so I stayed by the path holding the basket and he went to go get the plums hehe

Random Thoughts of a Random Crush

 Brownie update: I decided to put the batter in the oven at 175 degrees idc. I will be so disappointed if they don't cook even a little. 

Last summer, my mom and I had different clientele. For the record we sell food from our home so it's nothing official haha. But for some reason there was this one person who I got randomly infatuated with. I feel like this post and the last are exposing me a lot but whatever :P. I don't even know what it was! I think it's exactly for the same reasons as my current victim but the difference is that I actually interact with my current crush way more and that can be bad for me (mental health). Anyway, I rarely interacted with him and that made it like more interesting somehow. Looking back, I still don't know what I saw in him, lol. Let's see..... back then I thought he was so handsome and I liked his voice a lot but now that I heard him again after a while he sounds like any other regular guy. I was genuinely so infatuated though that I bothered my poor friends about him so much. It'd be almost daily texts of him and the tiniest interaction. They always tell me about how I have horrible taste and after my last boyfriend they demand to see any new crush for approval now 😖

I remember he came over for a carne asada once and he was telling us about missing his family and wanting to go back or bring them over and I was so delusional that I convinced myself that he was speaking about his parents or siblings. I later found out that it was a wife and kids he missed 💔 The worst part is that as each day went by, the infatuation got stronger that it was hard to hide. One time when I was handing him his food, I couldn't help but keep blushing and avoiding eye contact and WORSE smiling a little. I think he noticed... I saw it in his face a little....... and I can't believe I'm actually putting this on here but I think even my mom noticed because when he called to pick up his food I giggled and got up fast ;w; after that, she kind of just trash talked him when she hadn't really done that before so. I don't want any confirmation on either, though.

After a while, I didn't really see him anymore so the crush went away. I'm still really embarrassed that he probably figured out that I liked him, though. But he was really nice to me! He even cared and asked about me when I got sick and couldn't speak to our clients once. He was also 32. I sort of never want to see him again but at the same time I do!

Also, it's been almost an hour and the brownies have cooked a little so that's something..

So...

 Of course I didn't forget about my excellent blog. I just do not know how much I want to expose. I also want to keep it cute and all but I am a 20 year old living in a ghetto area who can only hang out with ghetto immigrant Mexican men (nobody else lives here). Nothing too cute about my actual life, lol. Well, these past few monthssss... I've lost some weight so that's nice, though I am trying to bake some brownies rn but the oven won't go past 175 degrees. Maybe that is a sign, ha. I've been working with my mom more and there is this one client we have that I think is a little cute hehe.. I've befriended him a little, he always responds to my dumb questions and he's the only person who's willing to play KOF with me. My only issue is that he drinks a lot and has a player past but I don't know... I don't even know why I sort of like him maybe it's because I haven't interacted with anyone aside my mom since high school. (Did a semester of college but had to stop for now so..) I am in my supposed prime time for going out, meeting people, partying although I do not like parties, and so on but I am just in my house not doing much aside work because I don't even know I just live in a ghetto area. Anyways, I think that if I knew a decent person my age then I wouldn't have even talked or taken interest in this said person but here we are. 

Well, let me think... despite him not being my "type" at least when it comes to men, he is nice to me and helps me out a lot. I think he's a good person too despite his past mistakes and he can be sort of cute. How can a grown man act cute?? Sometimes adults can be cute in a certain way, even just generally!! He is shorter than me haha even though I prefer a man to at least be my height, it's cute how small he is. He had somewhat long hair but he cut it 💔 This is all embarrassing to type out and post but at least it is only me who actually checks this blog. Thanks to him, I've realized that maybe I do like broad shoulders! Ah well, I do not know if I am obvious when I crush on someone or not but he did tell me that he only likes to date people his age because anyone younger deserves to still go out and explore and not be chained to someone older. Especially because he just wants to get married already :(. I think that it's nice that he isn't attracted to people younger than him but :(((. It's only a five year age gap.

Him aside, my sister came to stay with us for a while but she got her own place again. My other sister also graduated from an ivy league but I don't wanna put super personal stuff about her on here but I can say that she is now ready for law school!!! My neighbors son and other neighbors daughter have also graduated but from high school. That boy really got a camaro as a grad gift...

Language Learning for All and Thanksgiving updates

 So after reaching JLPT N3 and getting to a comfortable level of reading the most basic children's books, I've decided I should pick up a new language. Now, I love languages and everything that comes with them so this was a hard decision. Should I study Korean because I'll reach a basic conversational level quicker thanks to Japanese? Or maybe Russian simply because I think it's cool, but will it really be useful now? So I decided to narrow it down to either a Romance language or a Germanic language considering I'm a native speaker of Spanish and English. While I'd 100% learn a more obscure Romance language such as Romanian, Italian is probably the better choice here. I am NOT dealing with those French R's and I already speak the most useful second language to know in the US (Spanish, of course). I did consider German for a second but Italian seems like it'll be the tiniest bit easier thanks to Spanish. I'm not sure if it'll be the most useful in the US but I think it's really pretty sounding and I'd like to sing along to some songs :P. If I decide to torture myself and study two at once, I'll do German to expand my Germanic language acquisition. I mean, German is literally in the name... 

Anyway, turns out we're having Thanksgiving with the neighbors and I'm kind of nervous. I suck at talking to people but eating in front of people is somehow one million times worse. Their sons sort of scare me but they seem decent so I'll see... At least there will be pumpkin pie and flan. Also, I am NOT a fan of turkey or meat in general at all but it'd be rude to reject the main dish. Just as long as I don't have to help with cooking this year :3

I'd dress up as a turkey if I could, btw. I have it all pictured out, imagine me in a brown coat with real turkey feathers tied to the back of my waist. Totally genius, amirite?

Presentation of my genius idea. I know, I know. Totally amazing. Anyway, I sort of forgot what turkeys look like which is crazy considering these ugly birds are huge in my culture. #witches

Oh yeah, I made my own Google Classroom and some PowerPoint slides so I can finally teach my parents English. I know they will slack if I don't force them to so I got some notebooks and ESL textbooks for them. Tomorrow is turkey day so I know they'll use that as an excuse but after that they will not be able to escape me. I know they can do it, though :3

My Fat Son

He deserves his own post :3